- Ayer;
- De tantas persona que uno se puede encontrar, me lo encontre a EL! -.-”
- se veia tan lindo! :’$$! :’) & aunque no lo crean, los latidos de mi corazon se aceleraron’ v.v! :$ (que patetico’ JAJAJA xD!).
- mas me dio sentimiento cuando vi que sus ojos al verme le empezaron a brillar & el tambien se emociono aunque se aguanto porque estaba con sus padres’ :$!
- tenia unas ganas de abrazarlo, decirle que lo extra*o mucho, pero a la vez irme corriendo por que me acorde de la puerca’ que me hizo. :/!
- con todo & eso, lo sigo extra*ando & lo quiero a mi lado. :’(
- PU*ETA!
- QUE FUCKING MALO ES TENER QUE AGUANTARSE POR TENER DIGNIDAD! :@!
- i freaking miss him a lot! :’(
- que malo es tener que ser fuerte & aguantar las ganas de textearle, llamarlo, hablarle, saber de el, etc..
- espero que todo valga la pena.
[ I just miss him a lot but i also sometimes i feel nothing towards him. Sometimes I feel that if i talk to him again everything will be back to “normal” as in, he’ll continue with the confidence that he still got me there, but if I don’t talk to him & feel empty & I suffer & i feel that he wants me. Why can those two thing mix together so we can both be happy? I blame he’s fucking insecurities & his big love for someone who’s taking advantage of him. All I want is good for him, but by my side, not alone, like he is right now even tho he might not accept it. :’/ ]
- this part of my life is getting kinda hard. :/! Thinking well what to do next, HOW to do it, WHEN do i’ll do what i’ll have to do. What’s RIGHT for me or both of us with out also harming my relationship with my sisters.
- Worst part? I’ve thought a lot of suicide but like few hours later something good happens… So, maybe tomorrow or the day after today something good will happened? (:
